girl-aflame's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Long and Short of It No one can ever love me enough to get rid of this hole in my heart. I think about Brian and how he loved me, but then I remember that back then I had doubts too. I was drawn to Michael because he made me feel alive, where Brian made me feel trapped. My parents taught me that the right way to handle pressure is to run from it. And I was their pressure. I have made every man who has ever loved me pay for their rejection. I think if I find someone whose world revolves around me that they will never reject me, never make me feel ugly or stupid or unwanted. But I always have. I always do. 4:45 a.m. - Saturday, Oct. 20, 2007 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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