girl-aflame's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Cornered *sighs* I feel like I'm being backed up in a corner here. Guy is shot, absolutely shot. Not only is the boy planning to be a priest, AND in love with somebody else, but I have completely shot my image to hell. He knows now that I've kept Brian a secret from my family, he knows that I've kept Michael a secret from Brian, he knows Brian and I are on a count down to destruction, and God knows what else he's assumed on his own. I know he's intellegent so he must also know that while he's yearning for Bethany I'm yearning for him. Yearning for him?? Hello, miss engaged teenager, what are you thinking?? Well I'll tell you what I'm thinking, you pesky voice of reason.. I'm thinking that I couldn't even remember if I told Brian I loved him tonight before we said goodnight because it was so automatically inserted. I'm thinking he doesn't even log into our "house" anymore, he who goes ballistic if I'm not using all my traditional SN's and going through our traditional observations. I'm thinking that I'm about to find myself dangling in free air, with no ground beneath my feet and no tree to hold me up. I'm thinking that my life's plans are getting tighter and tighter into a little corner, and the sh*t is about to hit the fan... 9:07 p.m. - 2002-09-02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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